Christ
The Truth
is the Way
and the Light

The Truth
is the Way
and the Light

There are ten thousand times
ten thousand veils
to hide behind
Mine, is a house of mirrors
In which
I can never be found
or lost
internalized or not
the hatred of women
the distinction of
men being greater than
them
why gender is melting away
this is why gender is being destroyed
when the feminine
is really everything that isn’t
a “man”
and the masculine is
what draws invisible lines
in the sand
but neither of them
are man
or woman
and so
what a conundrum
when where you come from becomes
a foreign land to be conquered
and you are lost in the comfort
of being oblivious to the slaughter
of mother of daughter
the one who inherits genocide
and lives in a glass house of which
everyone else can see in
but he can’t see out of

Once upon a time.
I was having some anxiety and so made a bath for myself. As I slipped into the large porcelain tub, immediately was overcome with the simultaneous feeling that I was sliding onto a metallic examination table. My body gone limp, my eyes slightly rolled back and I couldn’t move… I just lie there and a sense of calm assurance washed over me… I am experiencing the distinct feeling of being in an alternate reality, on a ship of some kind, but like it was alive. I sense that I am not alone in the room, but surrounded by beings I can’t quite make out, and even though i’m not looking at them, the details of their forms begin to emerge in my sight… which are labial, like cave walls, pinky flesh tones, flowing though, like giant fungi. Instantly I know they are called “The Others” … and the feeling lying there is complete serenity. I feel one of them place their fingers on my head and temples, I can see what the hands and fingers look like, as soon as they touch me… though again I am not looking. The hands are large bony and five fingers, long fingers with bulbous tips. I like these hands. I am fully aware that this being is reading all of my vital signs, energy, memories and history with their finger tips … they remove their hands. I feel like a smile. “The experiment is going well.”, the being speaks without speaking. The entire vision vanishes, and I come to my senses, lying in the tepid, porcelain tub.
Death is
just beyond us
constantly whispering us
back into her abyss
and
everyday that we live
is
resistance
to her
inevitable oblivion
bliss
I lean my breast upon her knife
knowing that
to fear death
is to fear life

You’ve built for yourself a fortress of fear and of doubt
Now I’ll be the one to tell you
you let yourself in
and you’ve got to be the one to
let yourself out
we’re all different and it’s just the same
like, we’re all imperfect, and it’s just that
that perfects us
It’s the hero who lies within and not without
if you dwell in fear, guilt, and sin
than that’s what you got
God
isn’t just a man in the clouds
He’s…. She’s … every thing
and no thing
you can trust me
I’ve looked under and in
every rock
‘tween the crevices of air and water drops
In the faces of
(wo)men and children
soldiers
mirrors
everywhere
Emerging emergence immersed some cloudy frustration lingering my body cleansing years of unknowing clarity peeking in at me on the brink of remembering who i was in the beginning purity, love returning self consciousness evolving fear, hesitation, darkness diminished and what is left is what is left why am i surprised to find i knew myself […]
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